Everyday Is Not A Good Day
In my past days, I believed that I would one day reach this place in life where I would never have a bad day. As I grew closer to God and built a stronger foundation for our relationship, I believed I would reach a point where my faith wouldn't waver when tested. Today, I am the very person I aspired to be. While I am no where near the end of my growth, I am truly grateful for my place in life. My thoughts are positive. I am constantly seeking ways to nurture myself and my community. I avoid darkness. I spend most of my days laughing myself to tears. I can accurately discern God's voice and see his vision for my life. I have arrived! But, I still have bad days.
The more I grow, the more I am faced with difficult challenges. The closer I grow to God, the more I am faced with temptations of my past. For a while I questioned God about this. Wondering why things weren't getting easier, I questioned if it was all in vain. So I took time to evaluate things and realized, that in order to grow stronger, I had to be pushed to my limits. In my past, I was weak. I was great at putting up a strong front but inside, I was broken. In my brokenness, I used to feel like the weight of the world was on my shoulders. I was bending and breaking under the lightest pressure. Things I thought to be fatal, then, don't even phase me, now.
Since I started this blog, people often tell me how proud they are of me. A lot of readers ask how to get to the point in life where their life is filled with joy and peace instead of misery and grief; they note how easy life seems for me now. Forgive me for giving you a false sense of ease by making my life look uncomplicated because it's not. My trials and tribulations have increased, the only thing that has changed is ME! My mindset has changed. I'm just stronger now, but I still have bad days. I still have moments of weakness, sadness, and grief. If I didn't, I would no longer need a spiritual connection to God. The only difference now is I don't dwell in those moments. I acknowledge my feelings, assess how I can grow, and move forward. So I am writing today to encourage you. You are not the only one facing uphill battles. We all are. Some of us have just learned how to focus on building ourselves instead of the destruction around us. I hope this encourages you to push forward and continue to seize your opportunities for growth!