Cheers to 2016!
Popular vote has declared 2016 to be one of the worse years of recent memory due to the unexpected deaths of celebrity icons, a tumultuous presidential race, and personal loss individuals have faced. Social media is plagued by post condemning the year of 2016 because it has been devastating to many. On the contrary, personally for me, 2016 has been the most educational and positively molding year of my adult life. While beating me down, unmercifully, 2016 stripped me of the many mask I would wear and made me see myself, naked; without the facades and false idealizations of who I was and who I told the world I would be.
As 2015 ended, I prayed and asked God to make some changes in my life, never realizing that I was what needed to change. So God answered. And unlike that fairy tale love where he allowed these changes to happen very romantically, my eyes were forcibly held open and shown all the wrong in me. He forced me to be humble at times when I wanted to stand on my pride. He made me brutally aware of the pain I felt when he ripped individuals out of my life that I wanted there. I was in unexplainable agony. He ripped apart the ideologies that had became ingrained in me from childhood. It got to a point where I had no clue of who I was or even who I needed to be. I didn't know how much more I could bear or if death was near me. Because being ripped apart, beaten down, and cut every time my wounds would heal, made me think that this had to be what life felt like when death was near. But I was wrong. I was feeling the pains of birth, not death.
When Fall came, I began to experience all of the joys that came with knowing who I was and walking the path that God set out for me. I stopped making excuses and started seeking every opportunity to better myself and learn from my mistakes. My perspective changed. My wants and needs became aligned! This year has simply been amazing to me.
Thank you God for carrying me through this year and allowing me to see the fruit that my seeds bear. Thank you to my family and friends for loving me through my changes. I know it wasn't easy. Thank you to the newcomers to my tribe for building me and challenging me to grow. Thanks to all of you who took this Neauxlamade journey with me and supported my blog! Your patience, love, and feedback is recognized and appreciated. As you enter 2017, give yourself moments to feel, allow yourself to receive love, and consciously choose to be you, unapologetically. See y'all in 2017!